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  Joscelin tucked the old wooden cross back down inside his tunic and looked at Linnet. There were shadows beneath her eyes as if she had not slept well and she was very pale. He thought about what Robert had said and wondered how he should go about calming her fears. It was hardly politic to do as he had done with Robert and show her Breaca’s cross.

  The men were drifting from the comfort of the fire and their now-empty bowls. Joscelin was aware of time trickling all too rapidly through his hands. So much to say and the words all stuck in limbo.

  ‘I’ve still got a knife in my boot,’ he smiled, ‘and Conan riding at my left shoulder.’ Reaching out, he touched her face. ‘In another week, the three months of your mourning will be over. When I come home, we’ll hold a wedding celebration. Take some silver and make yourself a fine gown.’

  She bit her lip and suddenly looked both guilty and afraid.

  ‘Linnet?’

  Her colour rose. She met his eyes and then looked quickly away. ‘I already have some silver - thirty marks, to be precise.’

  ‘What?’ He had been about to set his arm around her waist but stopped in mid-motion. ‘Where from?’

  She drew a deep breath. ‘The strongbox. No, wait, hear me out. I took the money in London between the time when Giles died and Richard de Luci gave you custody of the coin. When you and he counted it, I had already removed the money. I did not know what was to become of myself and Robert. It was his inheritance and I wanted to secure some of it at least.’

  Joscelin did not know whether to laugh or rail. Certainly he was unsettled.

  ‘Why tell me?’ he asked warily. ‘You could have said nothing and I would never have suspected a thing.’

  ‘I know you enough to trust you now.’ She looked up at him through her lashes. ‘You would not do anything to diminish Robert’s inheritance.’

  Joscelin laughed inside himself with admiration at the way she had disarmed him. Her timing was superb. He had no opportunity for indignation and by the time he returned the matter would be half-forgotten, its cutting edge blunted. ‘I don’t think I would dare,’ he said wryly.

  ‘Then you are not angry?’

  ‘I didn’t say that.’ He drew her into his arms and kissed her long and thoroughly.

  Behind them, Conan cleared his throat. ‘Do you want me to instruct the men to bide awhile while you finish your breakfast?’

  Joscelin lifted his head and looked round at his grinning uncle. ‘No, tell them to mount up. I’m coming now.’ He kissed Linnet again, as hard as the rain that was sweeping down outside.

  ‘God keep you safe, my lord,’ she gasped as he released her. Her eyes were very bright, holding the suspicion of unshed tears.

  It was the first time she had ever afforded him that title and it was not yet his right. Perhaps it was a placebo aimed at smoothing his ruffled feathers but he did not think so. Her response to his kiss had been too spontaneous. ‘If ever there was a reason to hasten home in one piece, I’m looking at it now,’ he said before he swept on his cloak and headed towards the door.

  Chapter 19

  ‘Christ’s nails,’ Ironheart wheezed before his voice was robbed from him by the innocuous-looking clear liquid in his cup. ‘What is this stuff ?’

  ‘Don’t tell me you’ve never sampled usquebaugh before!’ scoffed Conan, sloshing a liberal amount into his own drinking horn and passing the flask to Joscelin. It was part of the meager spoils bludgeoned from a party of Galwegians earlier in the day as the Scots retreated over the Tees, pursued by de Luci’s hastily mustered army.

  Ironheart rubbed his throat. ‘God, it’s barbaric!’

  Conan laughed. ‘Give it time, my lord. Their usquebaugh’s like their women - rough at first, but soon your blood’s so hot that you don’t notice.’

  ‘That depends where you keep your brains.’

  ‘Same place as yours.’ Conan straddled a camp stool. ‘I saw you eyeing up that laundry wench when we were setting up camp.’

  Ironheart made a disparaging sound and took another tentative sip of the fiery pale-yellow brew. This time his throat did not burn quite so much. A warm glow was spreading from his stomach into his veins, comforting him against the evening chill. Autumn came earlier in the north. Up here on the Scots border, the leaves and bracken were already burnished gold. He stared into the heart of the fire until the heat made him blink and acknowledged that he was becoming too old to go on campaign. His body ached with the effort of keeping pace with younger men and his mood was tetchy. Knowing his limitations did not make accepting them any easier. Perhaps he ought to spread the laundry wench on his cloak and comfort himself with her softness, except that he had an aversion to the women of the camp, an aversion rooted in deep fear. He raised his cup to his lips, took a full swallow this time and told Joscelin to pass the flask.

  His son darted a look at Conan but handed it over without comment.

  ‘What’s wrong, don’t you believe I can handle my drink?’ Ironheart snapped. ‘Good God, the night you were whelped, Conan’ll tell you I drank him under the trestle and walked away damned near sober.’

  ‘Usquebaugh is not wine, sir. You’d not be able to stand up if you drank that flask to the dregs.’

  Ironheart was tempted to prove the opposite but resisted. Joscelin had spoken with the conviction of experience. ‘Where did you learn that, as if I didn’t know?’ He scowled at Conan.

  Joscelin’s eyelids tensed. ‘In a disease-ridden camp on the road to Falaise,’ he said. ‘It bought me oblivion for a time.’ Rising to his feet, he left the fire and went to check their horses. Ironheart watched him pause at a captured Galloway pony tethered beside the packhorses and destriers. It was a young but sweet-natured mare with a fox-chestnut hide and silver mane and tail. Ironheart knew that Joscelin intended her as a mount for Robert de Montsorrel, knew everything and more than he wanted to know about the woman and child because Joscelin talked of little else - a besotted fool. The usquebaugh burned in Ironheart’s stomach like a hot stone - or perhaps it was bitter envy mixed with the corrosive lees of memory.

  Sparks hoisted their way into the darkness on ropes of smoke. A soldier softly played the mournful tune of ‘Bird on a Briar’ on his bone flute. Conan took out his needle and thread and began mending a tear in his hose. Nearby, two soldiers played dice, gambling for quarter pennies. Joscelin returned to the fire, threw on a couple more branches, and sat down.

  William drank, then raised one wavering forefinger at his son. ‘It was on a night like this that I met your mother. Has Conan ever told you the tale?’

  ‘You’re drunk,’ Conan said with a perturbed look in his eyes. ‘Whatever you say now, you’ll regret it in the morning.’

  Ironheart answered the question himself. ‘No, he hasn’t.’ His lip curled. ‘But I wouldn’t expect him to boast his part abroad.’

  ‘So help me God, William, I’ve made my peace with you and her. I’ll not have you drag it out of the tomb again because you cannot hold your drink!’ Conan said sharply.

  Ironheart hunched his shoulders and, ignoring Conan, faced Joscelin. ‘I was sitting at a fire like this one, drinking some poison from Normandy that dared to call itself wine and eating bread with weevils in it, when a young Breton mercenary approached me and begged for employment. Begged,’ he emphasized with a fierce look across the flames.

  Conan sat very still. A groove of muscle tightened in the hollow of his cheek.

  ‘Sir, if you want to speak about this, do it tomorrow when you’re sober,’ Joscelin said.

  Ironheart looked down at the restraining hand Joscelin had laid on his sleeve. ‘I won’t want to talk when I’m sober. No, you sit here and listen; it’s time that you knew.’ He shook Joscelin off and raised his cup in toast to Conan. ‘As it happened, I needed men and decided that if he was useful with a sword, I would hire him. In the meantime, soft fool that I was in those days, I let him sit at my fire and share my supper. Imagine that. I might as well have invited a wolf to dinner!
’

  ‘You were as glad of my company as I was of the warmth,’ Conan said with quiet anger. ‘And when I asked if you had employment for my sister, too, you immediately jumped to the conclusion that she was a whore.’

  ‘It was the way you said it and the way she came to the fire with neither wimple nor veil to cover her hair.’

  ‘She was a virgin; she didn’t have to wear a head covering to be respectable.’

  Ironheart’s laugh was caustic. ‘God’s toes, I’m not stupid. No man in his right mind would allow his sister to walk around an army camp with her hair uncovered, especially if she was a virgin. It would be an incitement to rape if ever there was one. You knew what you were about, Conan. You thought you’d use Morwenna to make sure of your position in my retinue. A clean untouched lass would be certain to appeal to a man who was finicky about using the camp sluts and had been a long time from home. It’s the truth, isn’t it?’

  Conan chewed the inside of his mouth. ‘She was a virgin,’ he said thickly. ‘And it was her own idea to remove her veil, not mine. We had argued about it earlier. She said that she was sick of traipsing the mercenary route never knowing where the next meal was coming from and that she intended finding herself a provider. I came to you genuinely seeking employment, hoping we could settle somewhere for a while and that she could work as a seamstress or lady’s attendant, but Morwenna saw you and wanted more.’

  Ironheart gulped the last mouthful of usquebaugh. ‘You didn’t stop her when she loosened her braids and you didn’t refuse the silver I paid you for her maidenhead. ’

  ‘No,’ Conan bit out. ‘You’re right. I was enough of a whore myself to sell her to you. Would to God that I’d kept away from your banner that night.’

  ‘Amen to that!’ Ironheart snarled and looked at the son he had begotten on that long-ago campaign. Morwenna’s clear, beautiful eyes watched him across the firelight. He remembered her laughter, her willfulness and her impudence that sat so at odds with his ideal of women. He remembered her hair in his hands, dark and heavy and cool, the predatory demands of her body that took his own by surprise, although she had indeed been a virgin. And suddenly all the usquebaugh in the world would not have been enough to grant him oblivion. His eyes burned and filled with moisture and his chest and throat tightened. ‘I need a piss,’ he said and, lurching to his feet, staggered off in the direction of the latrine pit.

  Conan put his face in his hands for a moment, then lifted his head and looked at Joscelin. ‘I should never have taken the usquebaugh from that Galwegian,’ he said bleakly.

  ‘Was that what really happened between him and my mother? I have never heard him speak of it before.’

  ‘More or less. I knew she was determined to make his bed her haven. She told me that she would give her maidenhead while she had a choice. You know how hard it is on the women of the camp; their men are killed in battle and they become the spoils and chattels of the survivors. Morwenna saw her freedom in your father.’ Conan rubbed his scar. ‘I don’t suppose it was a strange choice back then. He was a handsome man in his younger days and he had presence and a way of smiling that turned women to water. I could see she was set on him. The silver was incidental. I did not mean what I said about being whore enough to take it from him. As far as I was concerned, it was a bride price.’

  Joscelin’s mind filled with a faint but evocative recollection of his mother’s thick dark hair and her hand touching his head. A glint of laughter. The memories must be painfully intense to the grown man who had possessed so much more and lost everything. ‘Perhaps it was too high for him to pay,’ he said softly, his eyes upon the tall shadow beyond the firelight.

  Chapter 20

  Quivering with excitement, Robert stood at his mother’s side in the dank autumn evening while Rushcliffe’s courtyard filled with men, horses and laden baggage wains.

  ‘Mama, there’s Joscelin!’ He pointed vigorously at the familiar liver-chestnut with its distinctive stocking marks.

  Linnet’s heart fluctuated between her throat and her stomach. For three weeks they had heard nothing, apart from occasional frightening rumours that came down the Humber and the Fosse road with Nottingham-bound traders. They had been told on different occasions that the Scots had reached Yorkshire and were marching on York itself, that the Scottish army was thirty thousand strong and every man a savage. Both Milo and Malcolm had scoffed at such exaggerations.

  ‘Three thousand perhaps,’ Malcolm had said as Linnet smeared soothing ointment on his scar to prevent it from itching. ‘I’m no saying they won’t be doughty warriors, and gey savage, but they’ll be more lightly armed - out for what they can loot. They’ll nae hold fast against mounted Normans.’

  Linnet had taken what comfort she could from his confidence and gone about her normal business as if Joscelin and his mesnie were out for the day hunting game and not hundreds of miles farther north engaging the Scots. To keep herself from brooding, she had taken up needlework with a vengeance. Not only was her wedding gown of sky-blue wool finished but she had also made Joscelin two shirts and a tunic of deep forest-green. Beside her, Robert was resplendent in a new tunic of that same green, his garment mirroring in miniature the one she had made for Joscelin. In Robert, the colour admirably set off the blond of his hair. In Joscelin, it would bring out the green flecks in his irises.

  He was home to wear that tunic now but not for long. Earlier that day, Brien FitzRenard had arrived in a state of near exhaustion, craving food and lodging for the night and a fresh horse in the morning. He had staggered to the pallet she had hastily arranged for him in a wall-chamber and fallen asleep almost immediately, but not before telling her that he had orders for Joscelin the moment that he returned. Orders that she knew, with a heavy heart, would only send him somewhere else to fight.

  She watched Joscelin light down from the saddle and noted with relief as he came towards her that he moved easily, without any impediment to suggest injury. Robert danced from one foot to the other like a hound straining on a leash. The man’s lips twitched. Linnet stooped, murmured in her son’s ear and gave him a gentle push. With a pang she watched him run to his hero.

  ‘I prayed every day like you said and I can gallop my pony now and guess what, one of the coneys has had five babies and they’ve got no fur!’ Robert gabbled out in one long breath, then shrieked with delight as Joscelin swept him up in his arms.

  ‘And he has learned to write his name, too!’ Linnet added, laughing, and, coming into the curve of Joscelin’s free arm, received a hard, scratchy kiss. ‘I’ve set the laundry tubs boiling, so you’ll be able to bathe, and there’s mulled wine in the chamber.’

  ‘You’ll turn him soft, wench,’ said a harsh voice and Linnet turned on Joscelin’s arm, her eyes widening with a dismay she was not quite swift enough to conceal. William de Rocher’s presence was a shock. Having had eyes only for Joscelin, she had not realized until he spoke that his father was with him.

  ‘I doubt it, my lord.’ An icy civility entered her tone. William de Rocher set her teeth on edge with his attitude. His look upon her was that of a merchant eyeing up a doubtful piece of ware. And he was soon to be her father-in-law. ‘Surely it is the duty of any chatelaine to offer her lord such comforts on his return.’

  Ironheart grunted, unimpressed. ‘You’ve learned duty since midsummer then?’ he said.

  ‘And I didn’t even have to beat her.’ Joscelin put himself between his father and Linnet. ‘Don’t you want a goblet of mulled wine and a hot tub to take away the aches of the road? I know that I do. And if that’s turning me soft then I can live with it.’

  ‘Pah!’ Ironheart snapped and, without being invited, stalked towards the hall, his gait marred by a noticeable limp.

  ‘Pay no heed,’ Joscelin said. ‘The damp weather gives him joint ache and makes his temper worse than a mangy bear. If his pride wasn’t so touchy, he’d accept everything you offered.’ He shrugged and sighed. ‘It has not been the easiest campaign. Conan an
d my father haven’t really made their peace and I won’t become embroiled in their battle to blame each other for what happened in the past.’ He looked at the child in his arms and changed the subject.

  ‘That’s a fine new tunic to greet my return,’ he admired.

  ‘It was supposed to be kept for our wedding,’ Linnet said, ‘but he wanted to wear it and today is a day of celebration. Who knows when the next one will be.’

  He gave her a sharp look. ‘Why do you say that?’

  ‘Brien FitzRenard rode in earlier with parchments for you, and they do not bode well, I think.’

  Joscelin groaned softly and turned to walk into the hall. On the threshold, while they were still alone, he turned to Linnet. ‘Marry me now,’ he said. ‘Today.’

  His words sent a ripple of shock through her but the after-effect was one of pleasant warmth. ‘If that is your wish, then it is mine too,’ she said demurely, but knew from the eager look on his face that he was not deceived by her very proper response.

  ‘The Earl of Leicester has landed an army on the east coast,’ Brien FitzRenard grimly announced and drew his stool up to the edge of the large, oval bathtub. ‘And Hugh Bigod of Norfolk is giving him all the aid he requires.’

  ‘Bigod? He must be seventy if he’s a day!’ Joscelin rested his arms along the sides of the tub. The water contained crushed salt to ease the aches of hard riding and was deliciously hot, almost unbearable.

  Brien tiredly pinched the bridge of his nose. ‘He’s a perennial rebel. If there’s a brew of trouble, you’ll find Hugh Bigod taking a turn at stirring it. I’ve got parchments in my baggage for you to read - and you, too, my lord de Rocher.’ His glance went to Ironheart, who was sitting on a coffer, condescending with bad grace but a copious thirst to drink Linnet’s mulled wine. ‘Hugh de Bohun, the constable, is mustering an army to prevent Leicester from striking across the Midlands to join his allies. You are commanded to respond as soon as you can.’